I could stay here in my living room to write about disappointment, pain and bitterness that the unexpected for 4 years of my life I was completely taken brain and soul. But that's not what I want to talk about in my blog! Or rather definitely describe my journey in this no man's land called infertility, but I want more than anything else that this is an opportunity for me and for those who have had this same my experience, to share and not feel the only on land when in fact there are couples everywhere around you pregnant, just like when you have the new car and then I see the same streets to your anywhere, certainly do not want to compare two things by putting them on an equal footing, because I know what emotions are triggered when see a nice bump, and because I know I will not be too much to comment on how to write what I'm thinkin ', I would just pull it out.
start from the end, this may seem a contradiction, I know! After yet another hormonal stimulation
bad, I felt really overwhelmed by all the anxiety, fear, fears, anxieties sometimes, you feel inside when they tell you that there were no results, yet you had there hoped, had believed that was the right time, the one where you are told "this is a good follicle that burst a few days ..!!". The tears flowed like a river, I could not say if they were tears of disappointment, anger, sadness, frustration, or all of these things together, I was inside .. Well! I can not say in words, but I asked my husband .. and now ".
few days later, I was still down, I did not really want to hear from anyone who knew the problem (ie my mother and my sister) "on the do not worry, next time will be fine!" I did not want there to be a next time The disappointment of years of monitoring rooms, analysis and examination both invasive and unnecessary, I was demoralized. But one evening my husband asked me "what do you think of adoption?" Now, not that we ever thought in these years of trials, however, surprised me. We talked, talked, talked .. which was very tiring, because they came out aspects of the thing that made me realize that it is not yet ready to abandon our dream of having our child.
spent some 'time, I was browsing online and I started looking at something on the internet relating to adoptions. Reading here and there I started thinking about it further, it was something clicked in me.
through a person who works in I had the other social information, and the number of GIL Guidonia.
I talked to my husband and we decided to call and listen to what they said. The doctor who told me I explained that we had had to attend two group meetings during which we have described the process of adoption both from the bureaucratic point of view that "emotional", these meetings are actually required if you then decide to continue with the path taken, otherwise you can define information. We went there, but not too puzzling about future possibilities, we went calm thinking about getting other information that will help us decide if we could be the right choice. It was important for me to see another 5 or 6 couples there because I knew in that instant when we were sitting in a circle to one another, we were not alone .. may seem a cliché I know, but it was just that: one of the things I've ever done is talk about our problem, to those who wondered why we did not have children yet we were still waiting for answer, that it was premature, that I was young, we had to first stabilize the work, a lot of stupid things because I thought that nobody could understand, and yet there they were 8-10 people who knew exactly what I felt, I felt, what had past, husbands and wives the same with our denied desire, but still hope, the largest, most difficult, but here it emerge from the words of the doctors who told us what we could to meet, tells stories of adoption and explaining the steps that we had had to make. I'm out of there thinking, "let's do it ..!". I knew my husband had arrived there before me!
At the end of the course we have given our willingness and before long we were contacted by GIL of Palestrina. They gave us an appointment so we knew our psychology and our social worker, we set several meetings with them (10 in all), one every 15 days, during which we talked about us, our history personal and couple of our families, our project and the adoptive parenting, finally came to our house for coffee.
These meetings were interesting, and besides having the purpose to know the couple and produce the report by the doctors on the couple, providing insight into various aspects of the approved projects.
We have already completed meetings in May 2010, and in July we brought the report to the juvenile court in Rome, where they gave us an appointment for an interview with the judge in charge of our willingness to adopt practice.
Today more and more certain that I made the excellent choice, we have much to give: the our love and our love and we want to get the first smile of our baby arrives!
friend told me not too long ago, "If the Lord has decided for you this way is because you are strong and can do it ..!" I have to have faith or not is not important, but it's true I feel stronger when I think that one day the phone will ring and we finally mom and dad!
's why I wanted to do this blog, because it was good to write these things, and I hope that someone can serve to not feel like the only ones in the world, and to share with others because who finally asked me why I did not a child after 5 years of marriage I answer with a smile "we're taking ..!!"
start from the end, this may seem a contradiction, I know! After yet another hormonal stimulation
bad, I felt really overwhelmed by all the anxiety, fear, fears, anxieties sometimes, you feel inside when they tell you that there were no results, yet you had there hoped, had believed that was the right time, the one where you are told "this is a good follicle that burst a few days ..!!". The tears flowed like a river, I could not say if they were tears of disappointment, anger, sadness, frustration, or all of these things together, I was inside .. Well! I can not say in words, but I asked my husband .. and now ".
few days later, I was still down, I did not really want to hear from anyone who knew the problem (ie my mother and my sister) "on the do not worry, next time will be fine!" I did not want there to be a next time The disappointment of years of monitoring rooms, analysis and examination both invasive and unnecessary, I was demoralized. But one evening my husband asked me "what do you think of adoption?" Now, not that we ever thought in these years of trials, however, surprised me. We talked, talked, talked .. which was very tiring, because they came out aspects of the thing that made me realize that it is not yet ready to abandon our dream of having our child.
spent some 'time, I was browsing online and I started looking at something on the internet relating to adoptions. Reading here and there I started thinking about it further, it was something clicked in me.
through a person who works in I had the other social information, and the number of GIL Guidonia.
I talked to my husband and we decided to call and listen to what they said. The doctor who told me I explained that we had had to attend two group meetings during which we have described the process of adoption both from the bureaucratic point of view that "emotional", these meetings are actually required if you then decide to continue with the path taken, otherwise you can define information. We went there, but not too puzzling about future possibilities, we went calm thinking about getting other information that will help us decide if we could be the right choice. It was important for me to see another 5 or 6 couples there because I knew in that instant when we were sitting in a circle to one another, we were not alone .. may seem a cliché I know, but it was just that: one of the things I've ever done is talk about our problem, to those who wondered why we did not have children yet we were still waiting for answer, that it was premature, that I was young, we had to first stabilize the work, a lot of stupid things because I thought that nobody could understand, and yet there they were 8-10 people who knew exactly what I felt, I felt, what had past, husbands and wives the same with our denied desire, but still hope, the largest, most difficult, but here it emerge from the words of the doctors who told us what we could to meet, tells stories of adoption and explaining the steps that we had had to make. I'm out of there thinking, "let's do it ..!". I knew my husband had arrived there before me!
At the end of the course we have given our willingness and before long we were contacted by GIL of Palestrina. They gave us an appointment so we knew our psychology and our social worker, we set several meetings with them (10 in all), one every 15 days, during which we talked about us, our history personal and couple of our families, our project and the adoptive parenting, finally came to our house for coffee.
These meetings were interesting, and besides having the purpose to know the couple and produce the report by the doctors on the couple, providing insight into various aspects of the approved projects.
We have already completed meetings in May 2010, and in July we brought the report to the juvenile court in Rome, where they gave us an appointment for an interview with the judge in charge of our willingness to adopt practice.
Today more and more certain that I made the excellent choice, we have much to give: the our love and our love and we want to get the first smile of our baby arrives!
friend told me not too long ago, "If the Lord has decided for you this way is because you are strong and can do it ..!" I have to have faith or not is not important, but it's true I feel stronger when I think that one day the phone will ring and we finally mom and dad!
's why I wanted to do this blog, because it was good to write these things, and I hope that someone can serve to not feel like the only ones in the world, and to share with others because who finally asked me why I did not a child after 5 years of marriage I answer with a smile "we're taking ..!!"
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